The wheel turns, the cycle spins,
etched deep in the marrow of time.
A clockwork dream we never questioned,
read with hollowed eyes in line.
January whispers illusions,
February sells hearts by the pound.
March hymns saving everlasting souls.
April weeps, but doesn’t drown.
I’m meltin’ away where the daylight bends •
I’m meltin’ away no start no end •
I’m meltin’ away dead or alive it’s all the same •
I’m meltin’ away the mirror laughs and forgets my name
A phone rings another call goes unanswered •
Into my backlog •
Another forgotten task •
Why don’t they leave me alone •
They always want my attention •
A problem solved •
But the problem is them not me •
I don't know what it's like to trust •
I don't know what it's like to say •
Can you take the wheel just for a little while •
And mean it •
To trust the process not the invitation
I'm so tired •
I'm sleeping but I'm exhausted •
I keep tossing turning •
Why can't I rest •
The stillness of this quiet hotel room presses in •
It's so quiet I can hear everything •
And yet there's nothing to hear
She speaks in breath •
Hot then cool •
Like a storm rolling in •
Before the air knows what to do with itself •
I crash •
Thunder breaking me open from within •
Lightning strikes at the peak •
Of my secret garden
