Performed by Emily Stellar with Christopher Sopher
℗ CosmicCrusaderMusic.com (BMI/ASCAP)
©Written, Produced, and Published by:
Christopher Sopher Media, LLC, Phoenix, AZ
About The Watcher of Everything
"To trust the process not the invitation"
The Watcher of Everything began as pure stream of consciousness recorded during a period of exhaustion, loneliness, and emotional overload. Sometimes when pressure builds, the only way through it is to speak without interruption and capture whatever arrives before it disappears. That raw process often becomes the starting place for later work: ideas, phrases, fragments of truth that eventually turn into poems, songs, and stories. This piece remained intentionally close to its original form. There is no chorus, no pre-chorus, no formal return point, only one long unfolding verse, because that is how the mind felt while it was happening: continuous, alert, unable to fully shut down.
"I want deliverance
From this endless void of hypervigilance"
At its core, the song lives inside hypervigilance, the difficulty of trust, and the exhaustion of carrying too much awareness at once. It moves between longing for surrender and the inability to release control, between imagined safety and the reality of always remaining mentally awake. One of its most important lines later became the seed for another song: “I want someone to hold me and say, I’ve got you Chris.” From that line came I Got You Babe, where the private need inside this song was reshaped into a repeating hook and given a new structure. In that way, The Watcher of Everything became both a confession and a source, a place where one song quietly gave birth to another.
"Oh to close my eyes and sail limitless"
Lyrics: The Watcher of Everything
I imagine warm hypnotic hands
Quiet touch
Gently sliding to the back of my neck
Slow steady safe stirring
My skin reacts
I struggle to maintain rhythmic breath
Desires drift
Oh to close my eyes and sail limitless
To surrender the rudder
Yield to the winds
And let the sun warm my body
Like hands warm my neck
I don't know what it's like to trust
I don't know what it's like to say
Can you take the wheel just for a little while
And mean it
To trust the process not the invitation
Whispers in silence
Lost in trance
I ache to put my guard down
To submerge in deeper connection
Yet elusive it bubbles to the surface
Of my awareness
Still out of reach
I carry too much of the world
On me
In me
Inside my person
I am overpowered
My guard stays engaged
And honors his diligent protection
Of my universe
Always alert
Always watching
Most days I maintain
Some days I am strong enough
Other days I want to set it all down
Just for an hour
For a lost familiar taste
Untainted submission
And not be the watcher of everything
To transport to times
Shocking and beautiful
Somewhere before beauty met tragedy
I want deliverance
From this endless void of hypervigilance
I want someone to hold me and say
I've got you Chris (see fun fact below)
You can put it down now
Mostly I want rest
Even when I rest
The processes are running
Things standing post
Nothing ever fully shuts off
I wake up every day at 3 a m
My head feels like it could explode with fog
Packed tightly
Causing unreasonable pressure
Behind the eyes
I try to nap
No
It won't let me
Silent I lay in the dark
I am drawn by a strange pull
Time stops
The diligent guard disappears
I imagine sparks from a fire
As they gracefully float
Like fireflies in summer
They intertwine
As they lightly navigate the dark sky
I watch them disappear
Realigned with nature
I hear a song so pure
So true
Only my spirit can interpret its meaning
I feel hands
Quiet touch
Gently sliding to the back of my neck
Slow steady safe
The universe winks
And for a moment
Absolution presents itself
Suddenly I awake
And realize I can't put it down
I don't know who can be entrusted
With my most precious cargo
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Fun Fact
I Got You Babe emerged from The Watcher of Everything, built from lines that later shaped its emotional core: “I want someone to hold me and say I’ve got you, Chris” and “To trust the process, not the invitation.”
